There has been a lot that has happened this year. My husband finished his military training, I graduated college, and now we are currently 4 months into my pregnancy. With all the excitement beginning to fade, the reality of being an army wife has definitely begun to set it. I feel like nothing has prepared me for the new lifestyle I would adopt.
We got stationed in Japan. At first moving here was completely exciting, and I was ready to go. However, after living here for one month now I am completely overwhelmed. Getting a job here is borderline impossible. I can’t go out in the city and apply because not only do I not know the main language, I also do not know my way around. Getting a job on base is not any easier because all of the jobs are already taken and the ones that are open requires documentation, certification, experience, or a certain degree in that area. In addition to that, I do not think anyone would hire me because I’m pregnant anyway. No one would want an employee who is going to take leave in a few months.
Besides the difficulty of finding employment, I am so homesick. I just simply cannot adjust to this new culture. I miss my family, friends, puppy, everything! I realize when I was at home, I took it for granted. I had such a good job that payed extremely well! There aren’t any online graduate schools I can do because they are accredited in my field (psychology). So I have to put my doctorate degree on hold, as well, unfortunately. It’s just so much that I did not realize that I would have to sacrifice. I wish I would have known at least some of this before hand, but I never ever thought we would be stationed overseas… let alone in Japan.
With me being so young, there is literally no one that I can get close to because they all are much older, too busy doing their military duties, or they aren’t the type of people I would hang with. The more I think about everything, the more and more I become stressed, unhappy and upset. I’m tired of crying. I have never felt more alone in my life. I really do want to give this place a shot and stay at my husband’s side, but I think if things don’t turn around for me within 1 year, I will consider just returning back to the United States and try to carry a long distance relationship.